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Untitled... (New... In progress...)
Originally this was a pencil sketched eye...another collaboration...
Thursday, November 14, 2013
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COPY AND PASTE, and PASS IT ON!
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Monday, July 8, 2013
Change for a Day...
Mission statement...
To use government and private funding to allow local establishments(residential, commercial, schools, volunteer fire departments, etc.) to reduce, and possibly eliminate having to have to pay for power with the use of solar/wind power installations. With hopes of creating a greener, brighter future. One community at a time.
Namaste
Friday, June 21, 2013
An experience with death...
It was the period of time when my grandma passed...My dad's mom. I was faced with someone close to me who had been part of my like for quite some time in the process of...I'll call it passing on...
I call it this because of my beliefs, and hope that it becomes clear as I tell this story....
Her and my grandfather had been staying with my dad and his girlfriend of ten plus years, and her 16 year old daughter for sometime while she fought and eventually lost to cancer.
Eventually my "step mom" ...my dad's girlfriend couldn't take it anymore. She walked out; moved out a short time before my grandma passed...I get it... I understand why she did. I'm not sure I could have expected so much of someone at that moment in time. Trying to raise a 16 year old daughter. Working 12-16 hours a day seven days on, one off,and then six on, come home, and seemingly have to take care of my grandmother, my dad, my grandpa, her daughter as well as herself! She couldn't keep doing it.
My dad called in the entire family...one of six other brothers, sisters, and their families didn't show up. His older brother didn't make it and I guess nobody expected him to, and nobody talks about it... At least not in front of me.
As the family waited for the youngest of seven to get there...there was time for me to be with, and around my dying grandmother...
Before her heart stopped beating she was already gone. Laying there in that bed was not her.
Now mind you, her religion kind of contradicts what happened...
I sat at the kitchen table at my dad's house. In front of me I wrote questions and answers from her. I left it sit there for...what could be a few hours. Let the family see it. Came back to it and threw it away.
I'm not exactly sure how long it was before she passed after all who were going to be there were there. But when I got back to work a short time later I was conflicted...
I remember sitting on the bench in front of our break room at work...having a cigarette. The piping above where I was there was a crow.
I didn't think anything of the crow or the white feather that happened in the air because we have seagulls that shit all over our cars at my work. It happened again the following day.., break, cigarette, crow, white feather.
So I grabbed the feather on the second day, took it home, and asked my girlfriends mom about what she knew regarding Native American religious beliefs involving animals. I asked her this as she's kind of a hippie in a way... Grown up hippie??? Anyway, she brings me back this book. Animal Medicine, or something along those lines. I open the book, and two pages in, is a printed drawing of a feather.
So I looked on what it said about the crow.
When I looked up what the crow said, it stated something along the lines of being able to see both this plane of existence and another.
It's what I needed to read. I'll tell you why...
My grandmother and I had different ideas concerning what happens when you die. I'm kind of the black sheep of the family. Either me or my uncle Shane, who's a month younger than me, who hasn't talked to his dad in years from what I understand...He stopped going to their religion(Jehovah's Witnesses).
I know she's somewhere different. I know that she didn't just cease to exist in this vast universe. She's still around. I once saw her in a dream... It was one of the most memorable things I have...A dream. She was washing dishes at the house she lived in in Montana. I was looking down on her from above. She looked up at me and smiled. I had never seen my grandma that happy. It's as if that smile weren't hers. It was so bright.
I try not to push my beliefs (too hard)(twss), but whatever nirvana, what ever deep love that you have in your being; exists those that we lose. We can't touch them or feel them always, but we can find comfort in their presence. In memories or dream.
Ps.
**I eventually got myself to a chiropractor to get treated for my headaches as per my grandmothers request. I'm happy to say that this year I have yet to have a cycle of headaches that haven been quoted as being as severe as natural child labor/birth. Three to four times a day. For up to six weeks(for me). This has been the first year without them in 13 years.
**Quitting smoking is a battle. It has been a challenging road. It is said to be harder to kick than heroin... Either way, the best way to quit is to just do it and don't look back.
Namaste.
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Questions:
Was thinking about that the other day myself... That one I think is a real hard sell on the subconscious...for me it is anyway...I think what I'm explaining is a progression , rather than an end all... 'Cause let's face it, when you can get point in consciousness that you are able to manipulate something like that with your thoughts, instantaneously.... Let me ask you, "Have you done anything to improve your overall odds of winning the lottery?" Other than buying a ticket...:) Which I have to admit is probably the single best way to improve your overall odds:)... Picking your own numbers vs. store/random pick?? Is it the money?? Is it what money does? Is there a way to accomplish what you REALLY wan't?? ... Changing the way you feel about money also has an impact on how money comes into your life...you can't dislike it... Not one bit...:)
Thank you...
I want to thank all of the people world wide who drop by this blog. It's amazing to me that I can jot down a few words and people all over the world can see them, experience them, and hopefully gain something from them.
Thank you again for following along.
Sincerely
Jason
Ps. This photo is from today, pretty awesome to have such a wide variety of people stopping by to check this place out...
Thank you again for following along.
Sincerely
Jason
Ps. This photo is from today, pretty awesome to have such a wide variety of people stopping by to check this place out...
A little help...
Amazing: rule 1... You are that shit, because you are that shit... Know this...believe this about yourself...and what's better than that? Telling someone else they're amazing/having them feel amazing...you get double cool points for that...call it karma ...idk
Rule2: (which should actually be rule 1)always be positive. We all have bad days, bad weeks, months, years, and even lives...but we can change it. The trick is to be almost 50/50 or better. I'll explain this. Fifty-one percent of your day should be in a positive manner...nobody tracks what percent of their day is spent in a positive state of mind, but you'll know at the end of the day...
Rule 3? Practice visualizing...whether that be reading a book, meditating, even watching subliminal tracks that shove images at really fast speeds in front of your eyes where it literally is too fast for you to process consciously and gets tossed into the subconscious and telling it to the subconscious affirms in you, in your world, the universal laws then take place and little things will show up here and there to kind of show you that it's working...like attracts like...magnetic force?? So...yeah...visualize...
Rule 4..."Train your brain..."
There's ways to do this...that take literally no physical effort... You almost don't even have to do anything but sleep... This is true. One of the most effective times to train your brain is when you begin to fall asleep, when you first fall asleep, and shortly after you fall asleep... Typically about 90 minutes on either side of falling asleep, and when you wake up are key points for training your brain...
Now if all of this isn't sounding crazy enough...
Rule 5...be open minded...things can and do happen...not a lot is known about how exactly the subconscious works... And if you don't want to take my word for it, you might want to do your own research...for me and the experiences I've had, it happens progressively, and not instantaneous. There is a time delay...
Rule 6...
Get a quartz crystal...
Rule2: (which should actually be rule 1)always be positive. We all have bad days, bad weeks, months, years, and even lives...but we can change it. The trick is to be almost 50/50 or better. I'll explain this. Fifty-one percent of your day should be in a positive manner...nobody tracks what percent of their day is spent in a positive state of mind, but you'll know at the end of the day...
Rule 3? Practice visualizing...whether that be reading a book, meditating, even watching subliminal tracks that shove images at really fast speeds in front of your eyes where it literally is too fast for you to process consciously and gets tossed into the subconscious and telling it to the subconscious affirms in you, in your world, the universal laws then take place and little things will show up here and there to kind of show you that it's working...like attracts like...magnetic force?? So...yeah...visualize...
Rule 4..."Train your brain..."
There's ways to do this...that take literally no physical effort... You almost don't even have to do anything but sleep... This is true. One of the most effective times to train your brain is when you begin to fall asleep, when you first fall asleep, and shortly after you fall asleep... Typically about 90 minutes on either side of falling asleep, and when you wake up are key points for training your brain...
Now if all of this isn't sounding crazy enough...
Rule 5...be open minded...things can and do happen...not a lot is known about how exactly the subconscious works... And if you don't want to take my word for it, you might want to do your own research...for me and the experiences I've had, it happens progressively, and not instantaneous. There is a time delay...
Rule 6...
Get a quartz crystal...
Monday, April 29, 2013
Never Ignorant Getting Goals Accomplished...
Sitting home the other evening...thinking... going through a mental speed bump, I start to question EVERYTHING... Are my goals that I've set too much? Are they too big? Will I fail? Will I sabotage myself? I don't want to fail. I don't want to sabotage myself... My mind wanders to the last thing I wrote about. The blue car that passed.
Sitting. Staring out the windows of my house I see a red van and a red truck pass by out of one window. As I turn my attention to one of the other windows, I sarcastically think to myself, "What?! Is the next car going to be BLUE?!"
Of course it was. Luck of the draw? Maybe. Possibly. A blue PRIUS it was. That blue car was enough to pull me up just enough that I could get my feet back under me, to push through these things that I've set out to do...
Now, if you are anything like me, you might tend to look for deeper meaning in things... Maybe look at them from a different angle...Like a thesaurus..(it's not a dinosaur...)a book with different meanings for a given word...
Touching base with my roommate tonight, I tell him this little story of me sitting, looking out the windows and seeing the blue car again, and as we are talking about how someone can just compose a work of art without really knowing how they did it and where it came from, either it be music, or a piece of poetic literature...I look up the definition of prius...and after I read the definition, I high five myself... This is what I got:
"something that precedes or takes precedence"...
I'll let you do the math on that one!:)
Just another reminder to keep on keepin' on...
"Staring through my rear view...like looking back on the world from another level..." Tupac Shakur
Sitting. Staring out the windows of my house I see a red van and a red truck pass by out of one window. As I turn my attention to one of the other windows, I sarcastically think to myself, "What?! Is the next car going to be BLUE?!"
Of course it was. Luck of the draw? Maybe. Possibly. A blue PRIUS it was. That blue car was enough to pull me up just enough that I could get my feet back under me, to push through these things that I've set out to do...
Now, if you are anything like me, you might tend to look for deeper meaning in things... Maybe look at them from a different angle...Like a thesaurus..(it's not a dinosaur...)a book with different meanings for a given word...
Touching base with my roommate tonight, I tell him this little story of me sitting, looking out the windows and seeing the blue car again, and as we are talking about how someone can just compose a work of art without really knowing how they did it and where it came from, either it be music, or a piece of poetic literature...I look up the definition of prius...and after I read the definition, I high five myself... This is what I got:
"something that precedes or takes precedence"...
I'll let you do the math on that one!:)
Just another reminder to keep on keepin' on...
"Staring through my rear view...like looking back on the world from another level..." Tupac Shakur
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Seeing is believing...
So... It's time to circle the wagons and try to get a little more in depth on the things that I've been doing... why I've been doing them.
Recently chatted with a friend on Facebook about leaving the place where I live. I told her I had already left when she asked if I was leaving, and that all I had to do was catch up to myself...
Sounds kinda funny, right? Kinda crazy, maybe? Definitely.
It all started about about two years ago, right before/during my relapse(although I don't really think it was full blown until I started drinking again six months later, but that's besides the point). I had just stopped seeing this girl and was doing the "still checking their Facebook" phase. I read a comment someone made about the movie, "The Secret." It was kind of a mocking comment about the movie, kind of a "do you believe this shit?!" kind of comment. I was unfamiliar with the movie. So I Googled it. I wanted to know what the big deal was.
After doing a fair amount of research on what it was, going to the website, and reading comments that others had said about this movie. How it had changed their lives. I thought,"oh great, here we go..." The comments were coming from a Christian based forum I believe. Although anything that's starts to "Praise Jesus!" for anything I usually turn and run the other way. I probably would have but I was still intrigued. I mean who wouldn't be really... I mean come on... There's a Secret and everyone's talking about it. Couldn't be that big of a secret if everyone was talking about it... And how come I hadn't heard the Secret if indeed everyone WAS talking about it? I had to know.
I was able to find the movie on Netflix, so I watched it. And guess what? It changed my life too! The movie is kind of a documentary. I won't get into everything the movie talked about. The main thing the movie told me was this: You can manifest whatever you want with your thoughts.
Of course I was skeptical. Who wouldn't be? But they had quantum physicists explaining some of this stuff. Doctors, Ph.d's... These people did not seem to be crack pots.
Then they started talking about love. Love and the vibrational frequencies you put out when experiencing that feeling. And that in order to manifest the things you want, by plainly visualizing them, you needed to feel THAT feeling. Truly in any degree... Towards your mom, dad, pet, child, as long as you were in that mind set... that "place" feeling it, you can transfer those vibrations to the things you wanted to manifest.
"Ok," I thought, after watching this movie,"I'm going to give this a shot!" So I sat in my chair at my kitchen table. I started thinking about all the things I was grateful for. Started thinking about my mother, and it was about two or three minutes into this meditation that I told myself... told the universe that I wanted the next car that drove past my house to be a blue car. About 5 seconds later I could hear a vehicle coming up the highway...It was a white van...Almost discouraged I thought, "No! I asked for a blue CAR" This was a VAN." And within seconds I heard another vehicle approaching along the highway...A red truck! I smiled, maybe even laughed... "Still haven't seen a CAR!"
Needless to say the next vehicle that passed was a blue car. I'll never forget that day. I was sold on the power of the mind. It made me believe.
Sure, it may have been a coincidence. But maybe it wasn't. There is really no telling. And that's how this thing "The Secret" works. You gotta be positive, and you gotta have love...more than 50%, and it works... Things won't just materialize right in front of your eyes, although that is not out of the realm of possibility. The universe has a time delay. It works in "mysterious ways"...but it works.
Over the last two years or so, I have never stopped believing, and never stopped using The Secret. And it has always worked. Just follow the principles. Even up until TODAY the power of The Secret is with me. The goals that I have set for myself and the way I am going to do it takes time to materialize.
I mentioned that even up until today I still practice The Secret, and even as of today it works. I will leave you tonight with this:
For the past couple weeks I have been opening the blinds on the window next to my desk at work and saying, "Ahh, the beach..." Instead of the giant cement wall that is outside of my window I visualize a beach, something tropical... This is just a small part of what I have been doing to bring the reality of my goals closer to me. (Those that follow me on Facebook may now have a little bit of a clue as to why I am posting some of those pictures;)) And I believe that by doing that, the universe brings that reality closer. Pushing it out of my thoughts into the here and now... It works in mysterious ways...just gotta keep visualizing...and it will happen;)
This is what showed up outside my window today...
Recently chatted with a friend on Facebook about leaving the place where I live. I told her I had already left when she asked if I was leaving, and that all I had to do was catch up to myself...
Sounds kinda funny, right? Kinda crazy, maybe? Definitely.
It all started about about two years ago, right before/during my relapse(although I don't really think it was full blown until I started drinking again six months later, but that's besides the point). I had just stopped seeing this girl and was doing the "still checking their Facebook" phase. I read a comment someone made about the movie, "The Secret." It was kind of a mocking comment about the movie, kind of a "do you believe this shit?!" kind of comment. I was unfamiliar with the movie. So I Googled it. I wanted to know what the big deal was.
After doing a fair amount of research on what it was, going to the website, and reading comments that others had said about this movie. How it had changed their lives. I thought,"oh great, here we go..." The comments were coming from a Christian based forum I believe. Although anything that's starts to "Praise Jesus!" for anything I usually turn and run the other way. I probably would have but I was still intrigued. I mean who wouldn't be really... I mean come on... There's a Secret and everyone's talking about it. Couldn't be that big of a secret if everyone was talking about it... And how come I hadn't heard the Secret if indeed everyone WAS talking about it? I had to know.
I was able to find the movie on Netflix, so I watched it. And guess what? It changed my life too! The movie is kind of a documentary. I won't get into everything the movie talked about. The main thing the movie told me was this: You can manifest whatever you want with your thoughts.
Of course I was skeptical. Who wouldn't be? But they had quantum physicists explaining some of this stuff. Doctors, Ph.d's... These people did not seem to be crack pots.
Then they started talking about love. Love and the vibrational frequencies you put out when experiencing that feeling. And that in order to manifest the things you want, by plainly visualizing them, you needed to feel THAT feeling. Truly in any degree... Towards your mom, dad, pet, child, as long as you were in that mind set... that "place" feeling it, you can transfer those vibrations to the things you wanted to manifest.
"Ok," I thought, after watching this movie,"I'm going to give this a shot!" So I sat in my chair at my kitchen table. I started thinking about all the things I was grateful for. Started thinking about my mother, and it was about two or three minutes into this meditation that I told myself... told the universe that I wanted the next car that drove past my house to be a blue car. About 5 seconds later I could hear a vehicle coming up the highway...It was a white van...Almost discouraged I thought, "No! I asked for a blue CAR" This was a VAN." And within seconds I heard another vehicle approaching along the highway...A red truck! I smiled, maybe even laughed... "Still haven't seen a CAR!"
Needless to say the next vehicle that passed was a blue car. I'll never forget that day. I was sold on the power of the mind. It made me believe.
Sure, it may have been a coincidence. But maybe it wasn't. There is really no telling. And that's how this thing "The Secret" works. You gotta be positive, and you gotta have love...more than 50%, and it works... Things won't just materialize right in front of your eyes, although that is not out of the realm of possibility. The universe has a time delay. It works in "mysterious ways"...but it works.
Over the last two years or so, I have never stopped believing, and never stopped using The Secret. And it has always worked. Just follow the principles. Even up until TODAY the power of The Secret is with me. The goals that I have set for myself and the way I am going to do it takes time to materialize.
I mentioned that even up until today I still practice The Secret, and even as of today it works. I will leave you tonight with this:
For the past couple weeks I have been opening the blinds on the window next to my desk at work and saying, "Ahh, the beach..." Instead of the giant cement wall that is outside of my window I visualize a beach, something tropical... This is just a small part of what I have been doing to bring the reality of my goals closer to me. (Those that follow me on Facebook may now have a little bit of a clue as to why I am posting some of those pictures;)) And I believe that by doing that, the universe brings that reality closer. Pushing it out of my thoughts into the here and now... It works in mysterious ways...just gotta keep visualizing...and it will happen;)
This is what showed up outside my window today...
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
The Journey Begins...
The urge has been strong to release the last couple days. Not really sure if its an urge or desire to release, or more of an inherent energy that I have yet to harness and explore. Getting reacquainted with the energy involved takes some getting used to. It's seemingly sexual in nature, but can't help but think that it is something much more. As our bodies transmit signals within itself that don't necessarily have to do with what our brains/thoughts interpret. I learned this while suffering through cluster headaches. With the headaches, it was my body telling me there was something wrong, and it wasn't necessarily in the center of my brain, or behind my eye. It was something else entirely, and given the degree of the sensation in a headache like a migraine I believe that it can be likened to the degree and sensation of built up "sexual" energy, albeit on the total opposite end of the spectrum...
More later I suppose...
More later I suppose...
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Whatever may come...
Three twenty-five thirteen. This day seems nearly as important as the date two days prior. Two days prior I once again had one year without a drink. But three twenty-five thirteen is the day that I made a one year vow of celibacy. Some people have asked me why would you do something like that? Others have asked "why" more out of curiosity than chastising(no pun intended). Some have even offered cheers and support. But why? What about HOW!?
It's not that bad if I think about it in terms of one day at a time, but if I start looking at it in terms of months and how many it is...well, it makes me kind of anxious.
For those of you who are familiar with celibacy and what it encompasses, well, it's not just "not having sex".... Get it? No masturbation...(I will come back to this-probably literally and figuratively). More specifically, no releasing of fluids. I stumbled upon this concept a few years ago when after a few weeks of...not releasing any fluids I noticed an energy about myself. Not just that I was feeling more energetic, but there was a sort of aura... A radiant force that I was somehow putting off. I even had to pull one of my guy friends aside and explain to him what I was experiencing and ask if be had ever had an experience like the one I was having. I will explain more.
After noticing this energy, and realizing that I hadn't "released any fluid"(I'm going to continue to call it that and put it in quotes for all the virgin eyes/ears/imaginations out there) I started to wonder if the two were connected some how.
So I pulled up Google. Typed in some key search words. And found some very interesting stuff concerning the things I was noticing. The word "tantra" or "tantric" kept popping up. "Male multiple orgasm." "The Three Treasures." These are eastern philosophies of Taoism. The male multiple orgasm has had a strong push from the west(TWSS). As it seems to be the main selling point of the Taoist system. But it is much more than that.
It's about cultivating and storing energy. Cultivating you ask? How would one go about doing that? Masturbation. Yes, one of the things you are not supposed to do if you are celibate. But I thought you weren't supposed to release fluid? You don't. The male orgasm and ejaculation are two separate occurrences. What tantra and Taoism teach are how to make these two things happen at different times, and in all reality make only one happen, as the other should only happen when trying to create life. The taoists believe that when a man ejaculates he lets go of his life force,(ever notice how tired a man gets after he ejaculates?) and why it leads some to believe this is why women live longer than men, as the orgasm for women does the same for a man who does not ejaculate-it gives/creates energy!
Note- it is still possible to store and create this (jing) energy without masturbation.
So why am I doing it?
Well, I got to thinking...I haven't slept with anyone in a few months... I haven't had sex...I haven't been laid... This is how I had been viewing sex. It doesn't feel right thinking that way about it. Something has changed...Going through life with such a cheap outlook on something that's suppose to be special between two people. The last five years has really warped my sense of what sex is and what it isn't. I used it to try and fill holes inside me(twss...). I've seen how that person turns out. I don't want to be that person.
The reason I've chosen to be celibate is not to explore the male multiple orgasm, but to channel and harness the energy that comes from not releasing. To focus that energy on accomplishing the goals I have set for myself. The goals, even as I look at them, seem daunting from time to time. It is this energy that I feel that I will need to push through these tasks. At the end of these endeavors that I've laid out for myself will be more challenges. I will not just stop... I will keep going.
Please follow along this journey with me, and we will see where it takes us!....
It's not that bad if I think about it in terms of one day at a time, but if I start looking at it in terms of months and how many it is...well, it makes me kind of anxious.
For those of you who are familiar with celibacy and what it encompasses, well, it's not just "not having sex".... Get it? No masturbation...(I will come back to this-probably literally and figuratively). More specifically, no releasing of fluids. I stumbled upon this concept a few years ago when after a few weeks of...not releasing any fluids I noticed an energy about myself. Not just that I was feeling more energetic, but there was a sort of aura... A radiant force that I was somehow putting off. I even had to pull one of my guy friends aside and explain to him what I was experiencing and ask if be had ever had an experience like the one I was having. I will explain more.
After noticing this energy, and realizing that I hadn't "released any fluid"(I'm going to continue to call it that and put it in quotes for all the virgin eyes/ears/imaginations out there) I started to wonder if the two were connected some how.
So I pulled up Google. Typed in some key search words. And found some very interesting stuff concerning the things I was noticing. The word "tantra" or "tantric" kept popping up. "Male multiple orgasm." "The Three Treasures." These are eastern philosophies of Taoism. The male multiple orgasm has had a strong push from the west(TWSS). As it seems to be the main selling point of the Taoist system. But it is much more than that.
It's about cultivating and storing energy. Cultivating you ask? How would one go about doing that? Masturbation. Yes, one of the things you are not supposed to do if you are celibate. But I thought you weren't supposed to release fluid? You don't. The male orgasm and ejaculation are two separate occurrences. What tantra and Taoism teach are how to make these two things happen at different times, and in all reality make only one happen, as the other should only happen when trying to create life. The taoists believe that when a man ejaculates he lets go of his life force,(ever notice how tired a man gets after he ejaculates?) and why it leads some to believe this is why women live longer than men, as the orgasm for women does the same for a man who does not ejaculate-it gives/creates energy!
Note- it is still possible to store and create this (jing) energy without masturbation.
So why am I doing it?
Well, I got to thinking...I haven't slept with anyone in a few months... I haven't had sex...I haven't been laid... This is how I had been viewing sex. It doesn't feel right thinking that way about it. Something has changed...Going through life with such a cheap outlook on something that's suppose to be special between two people. The last five years has really warped my sense of what sex is and what it isn't. I used it to try and fill holes inside me(twss...). I've seen how that person turns out. I don't want to be that person.
The reason I've chosen to be celibate is not to explore the male multiple orgasm, but to channel and harness the energy that comes from not releasing. To focus that energy on accomplishing the goals I have set for myself. The goals, even as I look at them, seem daunting from time to time. It is this energy that I feel that I will need to push through these tasks. At the end of these endeavors that I've laid out for myself will be more challenges. I will not just stop... I will keep going.
Please follow along this journey with me, and we will see where it takes us!....
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Compound Interest
It's almost here. It's so close I can feel it. It like its already happened and I'm just waiting for time to catch up.
Mid February I set in motion a list of goals to accomplish. I've titled these goals, "My 5 year plan." Whatever happens at the end of the five years has yet to be determined, meaning I haven't been able to clearly see which path I will take at that point. Although everything prior to the five year mark, everything in between has already been seen; been done. Like I said earlier: just waiting for time to catch up.
One of my favorite quotes by Albert Einstein is, "The most powerful force in the universe is compound interest." Personally, I think the statement is more of a riddle than asserting that having money in an interest baring account is something that compares to anything profound in the universe. Although the idea that your money(being an inanimate object) can create money basically out of nowhere is quite impressive. But... Einstein was very well trained in the art of visualization...I mean the guy could visualize himself "standing" next to a beam of light traveling at the speed of light...and he thought compound interest in the monetary sense was the greatest force in the universe?
How about the human mind? Visualizing. Goals. Visualizing goals. Visualizing, accomplishing goals. Accomplishing goals. How's that for compound interest? A goal is usually somewhat of a challenge. When meeting that challenge, and conquering it, it will build on itself. It will become more fluid, easier to grasp that next goal. And again, and again... What ever you set your mind to...like sitting next to a beam of light traveling at the speed of light.
So what ever you do out there, keep it positive!
"Compound interest is the greatest force in the universe"
Mid February I set in motion a list of goals to accomplish. I've titled these goals, "My 5 year plan." Whatever happens at the end of the five years has yet to be determined, meaning I haven't been able to clearly see which path I will take at that point. Although everything prior to the five year mark, everything in between has already been seen; been done. Like I said earlier: just waiting for time to catch up.
One of my favorite quotes by Albert Einstein is, "The most powerful force in the universe is compound interest." Personally, I think the statement is more of a riddle than asserting that having money in an interest baring account is something that compares to anything profound in the universe. Although the idea that your money(being an inanimate object) can create money basically out of nowhere is quite impressive. But... Einstein was very well trained in the art of visualization...I mean the guy could visualize himself "standing" next to a beam of light traveling at the speed of light...and he thought compound interest in the monetary sense was the greatest force in the universe?
How about the human mind? Visualizing. Goals. Visualizing goals. Visualizing, accomplishing goals. Accomplishing goals. How's that for compound interest? A goal is usually somewhat of a challenge. When meeting that challenge, and conquering it, it will build on itself. It will become more fluid, easier to grasp that next goal. And again, and again... What ever you set your mind to...like sitting next to a beam of light traveling at the speed of light.
So what ever you do out there, keep it positive!
"Compound interest is the greatest force in the universe"
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Namaste
As I finish my dinner tonight I think about what it is I've laid out before me. The goals I have set for myself. They are not unattainable. They are easy enough to grasp that anyone in my position can accomplish them. I stand now at the cusp of great things.
Feeling and holding these dreams that have been brought forth for me to capture...I believe the next step would be then to tell the world how and why I did the things that I did, so that anyone who may think a thing is impossible will truly have to rethink possibility.
We are great beings, great people, great minds, and great souls. It is unfortunate that so few recognize how infinite we each are...we all are...together...
Feeling and holding these dreams that have been brought forth for me to capture...I believe the next step would be then to tell the world how and why I did the things that I did, so that anyone who may think a thing is impossible will truly have to rethink possibility.
We are great beings, great people, great minds, and great souls. It is unfortunate that so few recognize how infinite we each are...we all are...together...
Monday, February 25, 2013
Wake up!
Laying awake and can't sleep because your head won't shut off? For me it feels like there is some sort if message I need to hear, or it feels like something my head is trying to sort out, and if I quiet my head, then I will fall asleep, and if I fall asleep then I won't get it sorted out, then I won't get the message... But it just may well be that a signal IS being sent for you to interpret and understand, and that if you just tuned in to the right frequency, then you'd get the message...try looking into brain wave frequencies... Just sayin
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Wake up!
Laying awake and can't sleep because your head won't shut off? For me it feels like there is some sort if message I need to hear, or it feels like something my head is trying to sort out, and if I quiet my head, then I will fall asleep, and if I fall asleep then I won't get it sorted out, then I won't get the message... But it just may well be that a signal IS being sent for you to interpret and understand, and that if you just tuned in to the right frequency, then you'd get the message...try looking into brain wave frequencies... Just sayin
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Something new
I may not win this time, or even next time, but when I do win it will make up for the times that I didn't.... Every time. ~Jason Murphy
Monday, February 4, 2013
Best advice ever!
If you've followed along the last few months you know I've had my fair share of bumps and bruises as far as "relationships" go. Again, I have been able to make my way out of it to the other side a stronger, wiser, a little more set in my boundaries. Today I'm allowed to see outside the box.
For those of you unfamiliar with what I went through I will recap.
I was sort of seeing/dating this girl. This girl was fresh out of a relationship, hooked up with me. Toyed with me, and proceeded to move on the next guy or two before going back to the guy she was with before me. A wise woman once told me that a monkey never let's go of one branch until it has ahold of the next one... Ok... it happens, right? Even to the best of us.
So this brings me to the reason for reflection... I was recently asked for some advice on how to handle a situation. A girl asks me what she should do about the guy she's sleeping with because she's now attracted to some other guy and wants to date him, and date him on a more serious level...*sigh*, people and their sugar coating! ;)
At this point I'm basically thrust into the situation I was just in, but on the outside looking in. Like karma asking me,"How would you have liked this scenario to have been played out if you had a choice, Jason?" It look me a minute(actually less) to give this girl the best advice you can ever give someone...
"Just be honest..."
I think I told her to be brutally honest, but either way, the point got across.
On the way back from a cinematic adventure(a movie) with some friends we discussed what it's like to be lied to... to be led on... to be made to feel...like you aren't good enough. We have all been treated this way, and unfortunately, from time to time, we may have been the ones breaking the hearts.
So as I reflect on the scenario and the advice gave I couldn't help wonder... "Just waiting on something(one) better to come along..." "A monkey never lets go..." Hmmm. "Am I like that?" "Am I a monkey"... I'm sure at some point through my dating career I have not always played by the rules and lived up to expectations of others.
I can sit here and be hypocritical or I can spill it all on everyone I've come across(twss)... Every game I've played... and how and why I played it. There's a game in every player, and a player in every game, but the thing about games is that someone has to lose...
Don't be a monkey...
For those of you unfamiliar with what I went through I will recap.
I was sort of seeing/dating this girl. This girl was fresh out of a relationship, hooked up with me. Toyed with me, and proceeded to move on the next guy or two before going back to the guy she was with before me. A wise woman once told me that a monkey never let's go of one branch until it has ahold of the next one... Ok... it happens, right? Even to the best of us.
So this brings me to the reason for reflection... I was recently asked for some advice on how to handle a situation. A girl asks me what she should do about the guy she's sleeping with because she's now attracted to some other guy and wants to date him, and date him on a more serious level...*sigh*, people and their sugar coating! ;)
At this point I'm basically thrust into the situation I was just in, but on the outside looking in. Like karma asking me,"How would you have liked this scenario to have been played out if you had a choice, Jason?" It look me a minute(actually less) to give this girl the best advice you can ever give someone...
"Just be honest..."
I think I told her to be brutally honest, but either way, the point got across.
On the way back from a cinematic adventure(a movie) with some friends we discussed what it's like to be lied to... to be led on... to be made to feel...like you aren't good enough. We have all been treated this way, and unfortunately, from time to time, we may have been the ones breaking the hearts.
So as I reflect on the scenario and the advice gave I couldn't help wonder... "Just waiting on something(one) better to come along..." "A monkey never lets go..." Hmmm. "Am I like that?" "Am I a monkey"... I'm sure at some point through my dating career I have not always played by the rules and lived up to expectations of others.
I can sit here and be hypocritical or I can spill it all on everyone I've come across(twss)... Every game I've played... and how and why I played it. There's a game in every player, and a player in every game, but the thing about games is that someone has to lose...
Don't be a monkey...
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Open your mind!
These words all link together... You'd be surprised how...
Subconscious mind, potential, manifest, reality, change, pineal, alpha, theta, delta, brainwaves, vibrations, frequency, magnetism, attraction, positive, negative, fluoride, cancer, calcification, control, cannabis, cure, love,
Subconscious mind, potential, manifest, reality, change, pineal, alpha, theta, delta, brainwaves, vibrations, frequency, magnetism, attraction, positive, negative, fluoride, cancer, calcification, control, cannabis, cure, love,
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Could not have said it better myself...
I can't believe how much this makes sense... I will definitely read this again, as it seems that it's something I need to pay closer attention to in my own life...
www.baggagereclaim.co.uk/youll-learn-to-trust-again-when-you-learn-to-trust-you/
www.baggagereclaim.co.uk/youll-learn-to-trust-again-when-you-learn-to-trust-you/
Thursday, January 17, 2013
My 5 year plan...retire by 40
This next year I will get a second job. I will use this income to pay off any outstanding bills, pay off my car, and work on getting my house paid off within the next 2-3 years(24,000 owed). I will invest any and all available money into a variety of accounts/stocks/funds/trusts that will pay out monthly distributions in a manner that will allow me to be paid weekly or even multiple times weekly as each one will pay out at different times of the month, as well as accounting for the two jobs I will have.
When I have my house paid off it is my intention to supercharge my investment strategies with the income used to pay my mortgage. Allowing for compound interest to take hold and do its work I will have investments that are able to produce a sustainable income allowing me to quit my job and travel the world.
These are the goals I have set.
When I have my house paid off it is my intention to supercharge my investment strategies with the income used to pay my mortgage. Allowing for compound interest to take hold and do its work I will have investments that are able to produce a sustainable income allowing me to quit my job and travel the world.
These are the goals I have set.
In retrospect...
Just sitting here enjoying what I believe to be called serenity, as I am not totally comfortable here since this feeling has never stuck around long enough for me to get to know it well enough. It comes and goes just to let me know that it is out there and does exist; not far off.
With the new year getting ready to ramp back up for more exciting new things, I can't help but look to the past year to see how far I've come. For me it's almost mind blowing.
A year ago today I was still recovering from a bout of pneumonia that nearly killed me. A stress induced sickness from the decisions I made to start smoking pot again, which had me at risk of losing my job, my house... everything material at that point. The physical loses I am still trying to recover from to this day. I was in great shape before I got sick. One hundred and eighty pounds of great shape. Over the course of the pneumonia,(before it was diagnosed/treated-about three weeks, maybe longer, hard to tell), I watched the weight just fall off of me day after day. When I ate I couldn't keep food down due to the coughing. When I finally went in to the doctor I weighed about 141 pounds... I eventually lost a few more pounds after that, but was afraid to get on the scale. I probably got down to 135. That's 45 pounds for anyone trying to keep up. Today a year later I've made it to a pretty sexy 162, which has been hard to do. At my age my body doesn't build muscle like it did when I was in my early to mid 20's, but thank God it still burns calories the same.
Not sure which is more important at this point: my house or my job. Well, I almost lost both. I no longer smoke pot. It's just not worth the risk, and will have one year away from drugs and alcohol in a couple months. It was that choice to think that I could do both in the beginning that really set precedence for my downward spiral towards a rock bottom. With relationships in peril, job hanging in the balance, and house and car going into foreclosure, I was getting ready to set sail to an island. Turn my back on everything and just start over. This was a very real thing for me. I started selling all my things. Was just trying to come up with enough money for a plane ticket. Something happened though. I think the weight of losing the house that I grew up in and having owed a friend a substantial amount of money kept me here.
So I opted to return to work, as at this point I was voluntarily on a lay off. Didn't have a lot of trust from management when I returned. A few of my responsibilities had been handed over to other employees, and my input into operational matters was not as valued and rarely taken into consideration. Which is ok. At least I was able to return to work.
A short time later I didn't just burn a bridge in a relationship, I blew that fucker up. That was the day I decided that I needed to quit drinking. I wasn't "normal". I didn't know how to be. It was hard. Harder than the first time I had done it 12 years prior. I was broken and damaged. Going through a break up. Feeling betrayed by someone who I cared about, and someone who claimed to be my friend. At that time that had been the most challenging time in my life. I didn't want to live, but my crazy head had me thinking,"what kind of person are you going to be when you get through this?" The answer that came through was ,"Better."
The hardest part of the break up had past, the obsession, to drink/use was gone that first day, and not wanting to live slowly turned into an excitement for life, and gratitude towards the people who had been there for me, who had always been there for me, I owed it to them and to myself to succeed.
Being that I was in a financial crisis from the previous few months I ended up taking in a roommate to help make ends meet. This turned out to be another very trying time this last year. I'm not going to go into all the details here, but needless to say she left me in a worse scenario than what I was in before she moved in, and I believe she is still wanted on fraud charges...I was lied to and betrayed again. I wasn't sure what I had done to deserve this, but really felt as if I couldn't trust anyone anymore, and really didn't want to. After what I had gone through the last couple months.
So after the roommate disappeared, my ex girlfriend who I felt I had ruined any chances of repairing a relationship with came back. I was doing positive things in my life and positive things were starting to happen. Within a week she went back to the guy she originally left me for with no real explanation. Just found my house key and my old iPhone sitting on the counter. Came around just long enough to spin me around upside down and leave me wondering why I even try to let people in.
With my worsened financial crisis looming I decided to take a second job. This was probably the most productive time in the last year for me. I was able to keep my house and car from going into foreclosure, pay off a pile of bills that had accumulated, and even put some money into a few investments for my future. During this time I gained a new found respect for what I was capable of doing when put to a test to overcome.
Working two jobs and averaging about 70 hours a week with about one day off every three weeks took its toll after about 5 months. I needed a break. And besides, I had started seeing someone who I was pretty much in love with, and wanted to be able to spend more time with them. Unfortunately, it didn't work out. It hurt. It had me again questioning why I even try. Brought up all those old trust issues again. But it takes two. One person can't be in love with he other and expect it to work. One person can't lose his mind and the other to want anything to do with him.
I was also able to quit smoking after 15 years. I was up to two packs a day, and I'm not sure, but with what I was going through at the time, but I think it may have been the single most difficult thing I have ever done. Physically, emotionally, spiritually, psychologically. A lot of things were affected by my decision to quit...
So here's to another eventful year that has me thinking, "what will this next year have me be?"
"Better."
With the new year getting ready to ramp back up for more exciting new things, I can't help but look to the past year to see how far I've come. For me it's almost mind blowing.
A year ago today I was still recovering from a bout of pneumonia that nearly killed me. A stress induced sickness from the decisions I made to start smoking pot again, which had me at risk of losing my job, my house... everything material at that point. The physical loses I am still trying to recover from to this day. I was in great shape before I got sick. One hundred and eighty pounds of great shape. Over the course of the pneumonia,(before it was diagnosed/treated-about three weeks, maybe longer, hard to tell), I watched the weight just fall off of me day after day. When I ate I couldn't keep food down due to the coughing. When I finally went in to the doctor I weighed about 141 pounds... I eventually lost a few more pounds after that, but was afraid to get on the scale. I probably got down to 135. That's 45 pounds for anyone trying to keep up. Today a year later I've made it to a pretty sexy 162, which has been hard to do. At my age my body doesn't build muscle like it did when I was in my early to mid 20's, but thank God it still burns calories the same.
Not sure which is more important at this point: my house or my job. Well, I almost lost both. I no longer smoke pot. It's just not worth the risk, and will have one year away from drugs and alcohol in a couple months. It was that choice to think that I could do both in the beginning that really set precedence for my downward spiral towards a rock bottom. With relationships in peril, job hanging in the balance, and house and car going into foreclosure, I was getting ready to set sail to an island. Turn my back on everything and just start over. This was a very real thing for me. I started selling all my things. Was just trying to come up with enough money for a plane ticket. Something happened though. I think the weight of losing the house that I grew up in and having owed a friend a substantial amount of money kept me here.
So I opted to return to work, as at this point I was voluntarily on a lay off. Didn't have a lot of trust from management when I returned. A few of my responsibilities had been handed over to other employees, and my input into operational matters was not as valued and rarely taken into consideration. Which is ok. At least I was able to return to work.
A short time later I didn't just burn a bridge in a relationship, I blew that fucker up. That was the day I decided that I needed to quit drinking. I wasn't "normal". I didn't know how to be. It was hard. Harder than the first time I had done it 12 years prior. I was broken and damaged. Going through a break up. Feeling betrayed by someone who I cared about, and someone who claimed to be my friend. At that time that had been the most challenging time in my life. I didn't want to live, but my crazy head had me thinking,"what kind of person are you going to be when you get through this?" The answer that came through was ,"Better."
The hardest part of the break up had past, the obsession, to drink/use was gone that first day, and not wanting to live slowly turned into an excitement for life, and gratitude towards the people who had been there for me, who had always been there for me, I owed it to them and to myself to succeed.
Being that I was in a financial crisis from the previous few months I ended up taking in a roommate to help make ends meet. This turned out to be another very trying time this last year. I'm not going to go into all the details here, but needless to say she left me in a worse scenario than what I was in before she moved in, and I believe she is still wanted on fraud charges...I was lied to and betrayed again. I wasn't sure what I had done to deserve this, but really felt as if I couldn't trust anyone anymore, and really didn't want to. After what I had gone through the last couple months.
So after the roommate disappeared, my ex girlfriend who I felt I had ruined any chances of repairing a relationship with came back. I was doing positive things in my life and positive things were starting to happen. Within a week she went back to the guy she originally left me for with no real explanation. Just found my house key and my old iPhone sitting on the counter. Came around just long enough to spin me around upside down and leave me wondering why I even try to let people in.
With my worsened financial crisis looming I decided to take a second job. This was probably the most productive time in the last year for me. I was able to keep my house and car from going into foreclosure, pay off a pile of bills that had accumulated, and even put some money into a few investments for my future. During this time I gained a new found respect for what I was capable of doing when put to a test to overcome.
Working two jobs and averaging about 70 hours a week with about one day off every three weeks took its toll after about 5 months. I needed a break. And besides, I had started seeing someone who I was pretty much in love with, and wanted to be able to spend more time with them. Unfortunately, it didn't work out. It hurt. It had me again questioning why I even try. Brought up all those old trust issues again. But it takes two. One person can't be in love with he other and expect it to work. One person can't lose his mind and the other to want anything to do with him.
I was also able to quit smoking after 15 years. I was up to two packs a day, and I'm not sure, but with what I was going through at the time, but I think it may have been the single most difficult thing I have ever done. Physically, emotionally, spiritually, psychologically. A lot of things were affected by my decision to quit...
So here's to another eventful year that has me thinking, "what will this next year have me be?"
"Better."
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Poetic Justice...
I lay awake thinking about the wrongs that I have done, and the wrongs that have been done to me. I feel bad for those that have harmed me, as in harming me they are doing more harm to themselves. The same goes for me. The things that I have done to others is still haunting me long after the damage was done. I hope their healing has taken place. I hope mine is ending.
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