Prayer...

...Lord...help me love life...most of the time.
Amen/Thabkyou...

Lord...

Please don't let my jealousy ruin my life...

God...?

I'm going to end up cleaning my whole house, and do all my laundry thinking about...everything...

Galatians 6:2

Carry each other’s burdens and so you will fulfill the law of Christ.

As promised... I guess there really isn't much to say there. Pretty self explanatory.

Went back to look...

Went back to look for the dimensions of Noah's ark(should ark be capitalized?) because I was trying to visualize how big it was and if 7 pairs of every animal seems logical... Yeah, I was suprised to read that...not just a male and a female, but 7 males and 7 females of every living land dwelling animals, as well as birds...

Anyway. This is what Genesis 6:4 says:In those days, giants lived on the earth and also afterward, when divine beings and human daughters had sexual relations and gave birth to children. These were the ancient heroes, famous men.

Lol! First thing I thought of was Thor! Haha!

Genesis 10:1-32

Well, we've seen the flood and the building of Noah's ark, and the introduction of his family and their descendants. At this point in the Bible their is little talk of women, and when listing children, the Bible seems to focus on the males... I wonder why that is...? And everyone is living hundreds of years. Even after the Bible quotes God as saying mankind will only live to 120 years... So confusing!

Enoch...

An individual who is barely talked about in the Bible, but yet was taken by God... The Book of Enoch was a book left out of the Bible... Check it out... Google it!

Up to Genesis 5:5...

Adam(of Adam and Eve fame) lived to be 930 years old! And had a son named Seth at the age of 130...130 years old having kids! Wow! Good job Adam!

Ignoring the truth...

I have yet to figure out why and when I didn't necessarily give up on God, but rather when I lost faith... It's been a long time, I know that much.

And why now to get reacquainted with that Power? Think I asked this question earlier, but didn't really answer it. The answer is in the Footprints...

Footprints

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord 
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life. 
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints, 
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord. 
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life. 
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it. 
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints. 
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me." 
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering. 
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

...Mary Stevenson

Thank you  Mary!

Why God? Why now?

Why not God, and it's never too late. I must rely heavily on this energy we call God. Is it safe to say that God is love? Yes? Well, with today being valentines day and all, and the person I'm in love with will not be my friend anymore because, she had decided to not be friends with her exes anymore. I am sure my many mistakes have also played a key factor, too. I have to respect her wishes to not see me, and at this point; even talk to me.

I'm at a place in my life where I've had a lot of bad things happen to me and am just starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. At my lowest point I never thought my best friend would walk out on me, but she did, and I deserved it.

I have to find some other way to repay the love she gave me when I was too stupid to see it right in front of my face. And when I say "repay" I don't mean stalker her or anything like that. I will let her be. Let her have what I couldn't give at the time. She deserves it. But since I have this love inside of me for someone I can't give it to, I feel it necessary to try and share as much love with as many people as I can, and only then will I begin to repay the love that was given to me...

I know...

I know that if I keep God in my back pocket, then I will be alright today.

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"Let us be kind to one another, for most of us are fighting a hard battle." -Ian MacLaren

I like to thank God this morning...

For allowing me to be standing here today.

The thing about forgiveness...

When you happen to come by God, Jehovah, or Jesus... You have to start asking for forgiveness for the wrong that you have done others...It's basically like feeling the pain for what you have done... How badly you have affected people...I guess it all depends on how deeply you believe you affected people, and if you feel you've affected someone pretty bad, then you may; in turn, feel the same or similar pain...I get it! Enough is enough!:p (that's me sticking my tounge out at God):)!

I am sorry for my actions. How they affected people. I'm not perfect and wish I had the perfect way of handling things, but I don't, so I'm stuck with this curse of imperfection to rule my behaviors...decisions??? I am 33 years old. I feel as if I am at a very pivotal point in my life right now, and some Christians may agree on the significance of that year and in which the year Christ died... Sort of a coming of age I believe I read somewhere.... However, I lost a very important piece of who I am today, although it's been happening for sometime with as low as I got there wasn't much I could do to stop it... I felt so low and alone that I pushed everyone who cates about me out of my life. I'm not really sure how I did it... I think part of it was letting myself go physically due to the stresses I was facing. Since I didn't feel attractive physically as much as I once did, my relationship suffered. I wasn't working. Just sitting around not doing a whole lot. Figuring out what was important, and children, I found out too late.

And in this life, the best things WILL pass you by...And that's the price we pay. But sometimes... On those rare occasions they come back through for no apparent reason, but to give you one more opportunity. And if you are like me; you'll screw it up. It happens. And I'm sure I will see my friend in another ten years... Maybe...

It burdens me to think about, because we don't know if we have tomorrow... And the person I lost today... Well, it just doesn't feel very good to know that I'm not going to have that day with that person...:/ Im rambling and I'm sure there's a ton of spelling mistakes, but I have to sleep...



















It's asking to feel that pain in order to clense...? Do unto others...?

I have been quite misguided for quite some time, don't you agree??Anybody???

God Bless the World, Dude!(in the voice of the short guy on Workaholics)

Tomorrows topic...

Tomorrows topic will be on our burdens and how we place them on other unnecessarily...We'll see if the Bible agrees!:)

How do I really know???

...something happened where I was locked up, and accused for something I didn't do... I knew didn't do it and I knew...even if there was evidence in the court of law that could still put an innocent person away... I just knew that over the course of my proceedings that I had a feeling inside myself that I was going to make it through... As long as I carried that trust... And believe me, it wasn't much(if you've read my previous blogs you know Ive probably got trust issues@.@)But I held on to that sliver of trust, and knew by that sliver I would not be wrongly accused. I went from looking at prison time to getting out on time served... Sorta, as I had some other wreckage to clear up first in other county jails across this great state of ours... Actually this is the time of year I was let out..13 years ago-ish)

During that process all I read was the Bible. I still have that same Bible today. Some old friends of mine can verify(maybe) seeing an old tattered Bible laying around... That's the ones... It blends in real well... It always keeps me grounded... When I pay enough attention to it!;)

Things happen that you can't really explain. Yeah it's all coincidence when laid out on paper, but as you feel that energy running through that paper plan, that's how you get to know God.

There comes an energy from all of us, right? Sometimes that energy runs low... We become depleted... But when our energy is running high(energy creates energy)...

What is that at that point? Yeah, I'm sure science has a name for it, but what makes it happen?

Do I know God???

This is a very important question in a Christian's life, right? Or anyone who believes in God, but does not necessarily claim a specific faith, or any faith for that matter, but knows that there is a little tickle somewhere that there is one creator, or creation point(interpret however you want), some starting point for all of it, right? ...

Let's cut to the chase. Yes, I know God. I know God very well in fact. I say that I'm agnostic as there is no solid evidence of such a God; other than what the Bible tells us(or any other holy book at this point as I have yet to jump back into the Koran, Buddist studies, and other Eastern philosophies...They all seem to correlate as I see no real harm in matching up stories...

And yes, I believe Jesus was a real person who walked this earth. I also believe that there may have been misinterpretations on some facts or facts left out of the Bible regarding Jesus' divinity... And that's not to say he may have been less devine, but possibly more. Needless to say, he wasn't from here, the Bible tells us he was part of the creation process...in one form or another, right?

As you can see, I am still filled with questions... And more questions seem to arisenout of those questions...ugh...

Genesis 2: 23 (Happy Valentine's Day all)

Genesis 2:23...

23:and the man exclaimed, "Here is someone like me! She is part of my body, my own flesh and bones. She came from me, a man. So I will name her Woman!"

First new post...

Ok... This is my first new post on a little different direction than my previous blog(s)/postings... I'm going to talk about God, Jesus, and who ever else to the best of my ability... I may interject opinion from time to time, as it is my duty to question the translations and possibly even the subject matter.

My goal for this blog is to delve into The Holy Bible(not sure how many of those words needed to be capitalized...)Any who...I will try to leave out my personal opinions, although I may question things from time to time... Which is ok, right...

Well, for now I'm touching up on the First Book of Moses...aka Genesis...

More later...