The thing about forgiveness...

When you happen to come by God, Jehovah, or Jesus... You have to start asking for forgiveness for the wrong that you have done others...It's basically like feeling the pain for what you have done... How badly you have affected people...I guess it all depends on how deeply you believe you affected people, and if you feel you've affected someone pretty bad, then you may; in turn, feel the same or similar pain...I get it! Enough is enough!:p (that's me sticking my tounge out at God):)!

I am sorry for my actions. How they affected people. I'm not perfect and wish I had the perfect way of handling things, but I don't, so I'm stuck with this curse of imperfection to rule my behaviors...decisions??? I am 33 years old. I feel as if I am at a very pivotal point in my life right now, and some Christians may agree on the significance of that year and in which the year Christ died... Sort of a coming of age I believe I read somewhere.... However, I lost a very important piece of who I am today, although it's been happening for sometime with as low as I got there wasn't much I could do to stop it... I felt so low and alone that I pushed everyone who cates about me out of my life. I'm not really sure how I did it... I think part of it was letting myself go physically due to the stresses I was facing. Since I didn't feel attractive physically as much as I once did, my relationship suffered. I wasn't working. Just sitting around not doing a whole lot. Figuring out what was important, and children, I found out too late.

And in this life, the best things WILL pass you by...And that's the price we pay. But sometimes... On those rare occasions they come back through for no apparent reason, but to give you one more opportunity. And if you are like me; you'll screw it up. It happens. And I'm sure I will see my friend in another ten years... Maybe...

It burdens me to think about, because we don't know if we have tomorrow... And the person I lost today... Well, it just doesn't feel very good to know that I'm not going to have that day with that person...:/ Im rambling and I'm sure there's a ton of spelling mistakes, but I have to sleep...



















It's asking to feel that pain in order to clense...? Do unto others...?

I have been quite misguided for quite some time, don't you agree??Anybody???