You need to try this! right meow!

After a long rough couple days I happen to stumble upon this video on YouTube. I thought I'd give it a try and see if it works... Amazingly it does. It goes along way into healing whatever it is you might be feeling. If you've lost someone close to you, this technique will definitely help. If you are going through a divorce or break up, this technique will definitely help. If you are stressed out about anything, this technique will help... I almost want to say it can cure it, as I just sat through a intro session, focusing on the things that have been on my mind lately, and I'm surprised to say that I feel good, almost great.

http://youtu.be/6i33V2EcVlY

There is science behind this technique and its not just some new age mumbo jumbo... Seriously, you should try this... We all have things holding us back, break free from them!:)

Explanation of change...

Ready to unwind. Although I am stuck in my mind. Intuition and perception. Is it all just deception? On the forefront of change. Moving forward has me feeling strange. It's for the best. Accepting that I will get little rest during this test. Our paths not chosen; we make our own way. To make our own day. To be better at all costs. But what if my heart frosts? Focused... Cold...like ice...Is this my sacrifice?

Since nobody bothered to ask what this was about I decided to tell someone. I told them that it was about quitting smoking...they laughed, said ok, and didn't bother to say anything back... I don't know if they didn't believe me or what...or, if they just weren't interested. But for those of you who have read this and wonder what it may be about here goes:

Ready to unwind. Stuck in my mind(If any one has ever quit anything successfully, you know that your mind will play tricks on you during the first few hours or days of the process.)

Intuition and perception. Is it all deception?(what I feel and perceive can be deceiving; "I can't do it" or "it's too hard")

On the forefront of change. Moving forward has me feeling strange.(I am at the beginning of this process, I've opted to use medication to help with the cravings. The medication has side effects that have left me feeling depressed.)

It's for the best. Accepting I will get little rest during this test.(pretty self explanatory... As with trying to kick any habit that can physically alter you're mental state; chances are you'll lose sleep.)

Our paths not chosen; we make our own way. To make our own day.(I cannot just sit here with blind faith and think"this is how it's gonna be right now"..."this is just how it is..." Fuck that. If I (wish I could bold/italic from my phone damnit!)... If I want change to happen, I have to make it happen!)

To be better at all costs. But what if my heart frosts? Focused... Cold...like ice...Is this my sacrifice?(if any one has quit smoking or know someone that has knows that they can turn into a real asshole. The smallest things can trigger ragging outbursts. Emotions everywhere. All over the place. I own it. I can be the biggest asshole around. But I am driven for change.)

What of change...?

Ready to unwind. Although I am stuck in my mind. Intuition and perception. Is it all just deception? On the forefront of change. Moving forward has me feeling strange. It's for the best. Accepting that I will get little rest during this test. Our paths not chosen; we make our own way. To make our own day. To be better at all costs. But what if my heart frosts? Focused... Cold...like ice...Is this my sacrifice?

Thanksgiving...

I lay here after chatting with a friend about what their plans are for the Thanksgiving holiday tomorrow. With a frog in my throat and blurry, watery eyes...(no I'm not crying!)...For what their family has gone through this last year, three generations of ladies having a Thanksgiving to themselves...Grateful to have each other I'm sure. It's those purest moments that we have with the ones that are closest to us that make this holiday experience bearable.

You should try it...

For those of you interested in the things I've discussed in my previous post, here are links to a couple of my favorites. For best results listen before bedtime. Also, stereo headphones are required.


http://youtu.be/HuhuUa2XYac

http://youtu.be/c3J_O2q2BOM

You can have anything you want!

Was in a meeting the other day and heard everyone talking about how good it was, myself included. It got me thinking...People waking up early on a Sunday morning to go get spiritually refreshed, to get some healing. And with my recent research into brain wave entertainment it makes total sense how one would receive beneficial results from a morning (or late evening) meeting like that.

"Why is that?," you say.

First off, our brains are constantly putting off different frequency patterns throughout the morning, afternoon, evening, and night. Each period of the day your brain tends to enter a different phase. More specifically during the morning and evening times your brain waves are in a Theta or Alpha state. In these states your subconscious is more susceptible to influence, or "reprogramming" allowing for maximum benefit for whatever it is that you are trying to accomplish.

There are ways to induce different brain wave patterns for meditation purposes. It's also said that using different brain wave patterns during meditation, and focusing on the things you want or need in your life, are able to manifest them into your life as if by "magic"...

Now, don't get me wrong, 9999 out of 10000 it won't actually happen instantly, but through events, people, places, and things. You will get what you want. You just have to visualize it!

I'll give an example, not from my own experience, but from an ex-girlfriend, who I tried turning on to this concept. Told her to repeat the things she wanted, and to feel them with love. She wanted a new apartment. Within three months maybe even less, she got that new place, she wanted a new job, was fired from her old one and got the new one.

If you are wondering if this has worked for me, the answer is,"YES!"

By programming my subconscious mind for the things that I wanted out of life, with the help of subconscious affirmations, using Alpha, Theta, and Delta brainwave entertainment I was able to jump start the life I have always envisioned for myself.

The power of the mind is so great that you can literally transform your reality if you so chose to. Cars, money, jobs, relationships. They can all be yours in abundance... Just have to ask!

"Be the change you want in the world"

Tattoos

The Life I Choose

This is the life I choose for now. I am grateful for the opportunities that have been laid before me, although it encompasses a solitary path, it is the way I have chosen. If I falter it will all be for nil.-jm

A little something to get you through your day...

Three in a week, I wonder what you seek...It's none of my business...

Forgiveness...

I am willing to forgive.

I release myself from my anger and let the past go.

The past is forgiven. I am thankful.

I let go of my hurt and anger toward _______.

I allow divine love to permeate my thoughts.

I live in the now each moment of each day.

Today, I forgive myself.

My memory of this situation is healed. I move forward with renewed joy toward life.

Relationship affirmations(for those that need it)

I see that you still check up on me although I wonder why...The things I said was not to cause pain or make you cry.

Our worlds are changing like I showed you how...How many times you've left me wondering,"What do I do now?"

So here you go...

I will develop a healthy relationship with my partner

I am starting to feel more and more in love

I will act with respect and care towards my partner

I am constantly developing and growing my relationship

Each day I feel closer to my partner

I am able to communicate clearly

I will always be honest and loving
towards my partner

My relationship is improving each and every day

I will express my wants and needs clearly

New affirmations!

Here are a few more affirmations for those of you out there looking for some that may better suit your needs for peace and harmony in your lives...

All my relationships are loving and harmonious

I am at peace

I trust in the process of life

Remember...

Remember to repeat your affirmations 10-20 times a day in the mornings and evenings to be most effective...

Also, writing them down in the mornings and evenings before you go to sleep repeatedly helps to cement them into your subconscious mind.

Best wishes and hope your lives are improving as mine already has begun to take off!:)

Positive affirmations

Here's another list of daily affirmations to help in areas of your life you may feel need some help:

When I believe in myself, so do others
I express my needs and feelings

I am my own unique self - special, creative and wonderful

Be the change you want in the world...

If you are having a rough go at it, a bad day, week, year, or even a bad life. You can change it. You can change it right now, today! Your world is what you make of it. I promise you that if you repeat these things to yourself before you go to bed, and when you wake up, your life will change! Better yet, record yourself saying these things and listen to it when you fall asleep...Listen to it WHILE you are sleeping. Let your subconscious take hold and just see what happens! See if there isn't a little spring in your step within the next few days. See if you don't start seeing things a little different. Maybe you start smiling more. Maybe you start feeling better about yourself...Maybe it will change your life! It has mine, and I just want to pass it on!:)

I easily attract love into my life

I am open to love

I radiate love and joy to all I meet.

I am happy about my life today

My circumstances are improving everyday

I effortlessly reach my goals

Drake... You nailed it.

When a good thing goes bad it's not the end of the world, just the end of a world that you had with one girl and she's the reason it happened, but she's over reacting. It's all because she don't want things to change...

Napoleon Hill

Disappointment over love affairs, generally has the effect of driving men to drink, and women to ruin; and this, because most people never learn the art of transmuting their strongest emotions into dreams of a constructive nature.

Time for change...

Time to start bring more positive people into my life... Less wreckage and more love... I want to thank all of my world wide readers who have supported this blog, even during the slow times. I will try to bring to you more content in the coming days and weeks!:) Take care, have fun, and love one another!:)

And yet again...

I have been made to feel like a fool for the third time in two months... I'm sick of it. I'm tired of the games people play... I'm tired of being a piece in their game... I try and let people in, but in turn they just walk all over me... Use me for their own gain, and when they're done just throw me out like the trash... I am done dealing with people like this in my life... They don't deserve to have me in their lives... I hope they go back to the lives they had before and forget that I even exist, it would be much easier that way for everyone involved.

Shivers...

Had a dream the other morning that shot me out of bed with what sounded like the love that I lost standing at my front door crying and saying my name...In tears I heard her say, "Jason..."

I later told a friend of this experience. I told them it sounded and felt so real, and as I told her I had to warn her of the craziest part... That I felt inside of me that it was her soul/spirit reaching out, lost, confused, angry with me...don't know how else to describe it...

A few days following my friend told me she randomly left work and drove to a lookout by the bay in the town she works in. She told me that she had to message me because as she came to sit down at this look out. There was a book sitting there. It was an inspirational book, the daily reading type. For the day that she was reading for went something like this:"When the world says give up hope, whispers say, 'try one more time.'"

It doesn't happen often in life that messages like that come through to us, that one sent shivers down my spine...

I've loved and I've lost...

I keep this picture close to me. What do you see? At that moment there was nothing better. I'm hope to someday get back to a place where; whether or not it's with that special person, that I find that happiness again. She has moved on and has found that happiness again in someone else. I am happy for her, but sad that we can't be happy together. She meant the world to me. I write it on this blog as I want the world to know. I want the world to know that if you have something so special that living your life without it seems unbearable; you better hold on to it. You better not let it go. Fight with everything you have to keep it. And if you are able to salvage that piece of heaven then thank your lucky stars!

*written two months ago

I like this

When we're wrong

We don't want to hear it when someone else is right... Do we?

The Hawk...

Saw a hawk yesterday... And this is the message it brings... Again, powerful stuff....


"In representation to humanity, the hawk is called messenger, protector and visionary. Keen vision is one of its greatest gifts. Hawks see things others miss.

The hawk comes to you indicating that you are now awakening to your soul purpose, your reason for being here. It can teach you how to fly high while keeping yourself connected to the ground.

As you rise to a higher level, your psychic energies are awakening and the hawk can help you to keep those senses in balance. Its message for you is to be open to hope and new ideas, to extend the vision of your life.

The Hawk is an animal of flight. It soars through the air looking down, and sees everything. It has a larger perspective of what is going on down below. With its keen eyesight, it looks down as it soars through the air looking for its prey. It can see the smallest of creatures below.

The Hawk teaches you to be observant and take a close look at your surroundings. It soars with the power to overcome difficult situations. It soars in circles over the life of the earth, asking you to circle over your life and view it from a higher perspective.

The Hawk has a distinct cry, one that most people are aware of. Its cry signifies awareness. If you hear the cry of the hawk use your intuitive ability to discern the message and seek the truth.

If a hawk has soared into your life, you require a higher perspective. You need to see the details of what is going on and look at the bigger picture. Take a look at your situation from above."

Food for Thought...

"We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.

"We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals-usually brief-were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better."~page 30 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Page 25 continued...

If you are ad seriously alcoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution. We were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help.

There is a solution page 25 Alcoholics Anonymous

There is a solution. Almost none of us liked the self-searching, the leveling of our pride, the confession of shortcomings which the process requires for successful consummation.

Gotta watch for the signs...

Over the last 4 days a certain animal has been making itself known to me.

Today I understand...

(As written in Animal Spirit Guides)

"If Turtle shows up, it means:

You've been going much too fast for too long, so slow down and pace yourself.

This is a time to be more self-reliant and less dependent on others.

Take time to nurture and simply observe and feel your emotions.

This is a period of increased sensitivity to the earth's vibrations and those of the collective human consciousness, which you'll first feel as sensations in your body prior to resultant emotions.

Spend a few hours or longer in solitude, away from other people and the usual noise that surrounds you.

This is a very creative, fertile time, and you need to shield yourself from interferences that threaten to distract you."

Powerful...

...

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

....

If love is so important to have that one doesn't want to lose it, why is it when we find true love we often don't notice it?

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Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection.

Just another quote...

"If that lifestyle you're living has you takin' more shots than gettin' props: then that lifestyle has to change" Tupac Shakur

Arabian proverb

Examine what is said, not he who speaks.

Guilt

"It is not the intentions of the words to create guilt; the guilt comes from within."

The Doctors Opinion

From the book of Alcoholics Anonymous:

"Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks-drinks which they see others taking with impunity... unless this person can experience a complete psychic change there is very little hope for his(her) recovery"

Stole this one too...

Stole this from a friends facebook page...

A parallel of sorts...

He was nailed to a cross... A cross roads... Part of him died... He rose...

We've all been nailed to a cross... A cross roads... Part of us will die...we will rise...

Can't deny God...

It's time to quit. Call it a spiritual awakening, an epiphany, or a moment of clarity. It's been calling me, slapping me in my face for over a year. I ignored it. I wanted to be different, I wanted to be the same as everyone else. But I'm not. But, yet, I am different. Different than those who are normal. Those who's lives aren't destroyed by the throws of addiction.

What finally got me here? I did things that can't be undone. Things that wouldn't have happened had I not gone down a path I should have known better to go down. Upon having that moment of clarity, and realizing my action over the last year I was ready to give up. Knowing whole heartedly what I had become, and what else was to come if I continued on that way-it's a very powerful feeling.

What makes me so sure...?

I find this(refer to picture) under my doormat, along with the key to my house that I requested an old friend put there... My friend only placed the key, and someone else placed the other... Maybe this picture is "the key"... I don't know. But whatever the circumstances be; the message was loud and clear...

The day I had my moments of clarity, all the while at work: this was waiting for me...

...

WTF AM I THINKING!!!

10:01

More gibberish...

It's up-side-down for a reason...

I apologize...

I apologize to my world wide readers, as it may be more difficult to read and understand my blog during this time frame. I am currently using the hand written form to express myself here. I am taking photos/scanning them to the blog... My handwriting could use some work... But can't we all really use some work...some cleaning up..? The writing is me, at it's core. Although messy; I believe the hand written form carries an artistic value, thus, the new project...!

Just a thought

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Good ones gone bad...

Prayer...

...Lord...help me love life...most of the time.
Amen/Thabkyou...

Lord...

Please don't let my jealousy ruin my life...

God...?

I'm going to end up cleaning my whole house, and do all my laundry thinking about...everything...

Galatians 6:2

Carry each other’s burdens and so you will fulfill the law of Christ.

As promised... I guess there really isn't much to say there. Pretty self explanatory.

Went back to look...

Went back to look for the dimensions of Noah's ark(should ark be capitalized?) because I was trying to visualize how big it was and if 7 pairs of every animal seems logical... Yeah, I was suprised to read that...not just a male and a female, but 7 males and 7 females of every living land dwelling animals, as well as birds...

Anyway. This is what Genesis 6:4 says:In those days, giants lived on the earth and also afterward, when divine beings and human daughters had sexual relations and gave birth to children. These were the ancient heroes, famous men.

Lol! First thing I thought of was Thor! Haha!

Genesis 10:1-32

Well, we've seen the flood and the building of Noah's ark, and the introduction of his family and their descendants. At this point in the Bible their is little talk of women, and when listing children, the Bible seems to focus on the males... I wonder why that is...? And everyone is living hundreds of years. Even after the Bible quotes God as saying mankind will only live to 120 years... So confusing!

Enoch...

An individual who is barely talked about in the Bible, but yet was taken by God... The Book of Enoch was a book left out of the Bible... Check it out... Google it!

Up to Genesis 5:5...

Adam(of Adam and Eve fame) lived to be 930 years old! And had a son named Seth at the age of 130...130 years old having kids! Wow! Good job Adam!

Ignoring the truth...

I have yet to figure out why and when I didn't necessarily give up on God, but rather when I lost faith... It's been a long time, I know that much.

And why now to get reacquainted with that Power? Think I asked this question earlier, but didn't really answer it. The answer is in the Footprints...

Footprints

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord 
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life. 
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints, 
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord. 
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life. 
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it. 
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints. 
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me." 
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering. 
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

...Mary Stevenson

Thank you  Mary!

Why God? Why now?

Why not God, and it's never too late. I must rely heavily on this energy we call God. Is it safe to say that God is love? Yes? Well, with today being valentines day and all, and the person I'm in love with will not be my friend anymore because, she had decided to not be friends with her exes anymore. I am sure my many mistakes have also played a key factor, too. I have to respect her wishes to not see me, and at this point; even talk to me.

I'm at a place in my life where I've had a lot of bad things happen to me and am just starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. At my lowest point I never thought my best friend would walk out on me, but she did, and I deserved it.

I have to find some other way to repay the love she gave me when I was too stupid to see it right in front of my face. And when I say "repay" I don't mean stalker her or anything like that. I will let her be. Let her have what I couldn't give at the time. She deserves it. But since I have this love inside of me for someone I can't give it to, I feel it necessary to try and share as much love with as many people as I can, and only then will I begin to repay the love that was given to me...

I know...

I know that if I keep God in my back pocket, then I will be alright today.

....

"Let us be kind to one another, for most of us are fighting a hard battle." -Ian MacLaren

I like to thank God this morning...

For allowing me to be standing here today.

The thing about forgiveness...

When you happen to come by God, Jehovah, or Jesus... You have to start asking for forgiveness for the wrong that you have done others...It's basically like feeling the pain for what you have done... How badly you have affected people...I guess it all depends on how deeply you believe you affected people, and if you feel you've affected someone pretty bad, then you may; in turn, feel the same or similar pain...I get it! Enough is enough!:p (that's me sticking my tounge out at God):)!

I am sorry for my actions. How they affected people. I'm not perfect and wish I had the perfect way of handling things, but I don't, so I'm stuck with this curse of imperfection to rule my behaviors...decisions??? I am 33 years old. I feel as if I am at a very pivotal point in my life right now, and some Christians may agree on the significance of that year and in which the year Christ died... Sort of a coming of age I believe I read somewhere.... However, I lost a very important piece of who I am today, although it's been happening for sometime with as low as I got there wasn't much I could do to stop it... I felt so low and alone that I pushed everyone who cates about me out of my life. I'm not really sure how I did it... I think part of it was letting myself go physically due to the stresses I was facing. Since I didn't feel attractive physically as much as I once did, my relationship suffered. I wasn't working. Just sitting around not doing a whole lot. Figuring out what was important, and children, I found out too late.

And in this life, the best things WILL pass you by...And that's the price we pay. But sometimes... On those rare occasions they come back through for no apparent reason, but to give you one more opportunity. And if you are like me; you'll screw it up. It happens. And I'm sure I will see my friend in another ten years... Maybe...

It burdens me to think about, because we don't know if we have tomorrow... And the person I lost today... Well, it just doesn't feel very good to know that I'm not going to have that day with that person...:/ Im rambling and I'm sure there's a ton of spelling mistakes, but I have to sleep...



















It's asking to feel that pain in order to clense...? Do unto others...?

I have been quite misguided for quite some time, don't you agree??Anybody???

God Bless the World, Dude!(in the voice of the short guy on Workaholics)

Tomorrows topic...

Tomorrows topic will be on our burdens and how we place them on other unnecessarily...We'll see if the Bible agrees!:)

How do I really know???

...something happened where I was locked up, and accused for something I didn't do... I knew didn't do it and I knew...even if there was evidence in the court of law that could still put an innocent person away... I just knew that over the course of my proceedings that I had a feeling inside myself that I was going to make it through... As long as I carried that trust... And believe me, it wasn't much(if you've read my previous blogs you know Ive probably got trust issues@.@)But I held on to that sliver of trust, and knew by that sliver I would not be wrongly accused. I went from looking at prison time to getting out on time served... Sorta, as I had some other wreckage to clear up first in other county jails across this great state of ours... Actually this is the time of year I was let out..13 years ago-ish)

During that process all I read was the Bible. I still have that same Bible today. Some old friends of mine can verify(maybe) seeing an old tattered Bible laying around... That's the ones... It blends in real well... It always keeps me grounded... When I pay enough attention to it!;)

Things happen that you can't really explain. Yeah it's all coincidence when laid out on paper, but as you feel that energy running through that paper plan, that's how you get to know God.

There comes an energy from all of us, right? Sometimes that energy runs low... We become depleted... But when our energy is running high(energy creates energy)...

What is that at that point? Yeah, I'm sure science has a name for it, but what makes it happen?

Do I know God???

This is a very important question in a Christian's life, right? Or anyone who believes in God, but does not necessarily claim a specific faith, or any faith for that matter, but knows that there is a little tickle somewhere that there is one creator, or creation point(interpret however you want), some starting point for all of it, right? ...

Let's cut to the chase. Yes, I know God. I know God very well in fact. I say that I'm agnostic as there is no solid evidence of such a God; other than what the Bible tells us(or any other holy book at this point as I have yet to jump back into the Koran, Buddist studies, and other Eastern philosophies...They all seem to correlate as I see no real harm in matching up stories...

And yes, I believe Jesus was a real person who walked this earth. I also believe that there may have been misinterpretations on some facts or facts left out of the Bible regarding Jesus' divinity... And that's not to say he may have been less devine, but possibly more. Needless to say, he wasn't from here, the Bible tells us he was part of the creation process...in one form or another, right?

As you can see, I am still filled with questions... And more questions seem to arisenout of those questions...ugh...

Genesis 2: 23 (Happy Valentine's Day all)

Genesis 2:23...

23:and the man exclaimed, "Here is someone like me! She is part of my body, my own flesh and bones. She came from me, a man. So I will name her Woman!"

First new post...

Ok... This is my first new post on a little different direction than my previous blog(s)/postings... I'm going to talk about God, Jesus, and who ever else to the best of my ability... I may interject opinion from time to time, as it is my duty to question the translations and possibly even the subject matter.

My goal for this blog is to delve into The Holy Bible(not sure how many of those words needed to be capitalized...)Any who...I will try to leave out my personal opinions, although I may question things from time to time... Which is ok, right...

Well, for now I'm touching up on the First Book of Moses...aka Genesis...

More later...