"We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.
"We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals-usually brief-were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better."~page 30 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
Murph, I know that demoralization. It really is a miracle to be able to see it coming and NOT make the same mistakes that I have made in the past. I GET to make a whole new set of mistakes :)
ReplyDeleteI sit there and read these things that I post and can't help but want certain people who are still out there, hoping they'll see this and maybe something will come clear... Its the least... And most I can do at this point...
ReplyDeleteBy the way, thanks for the comment KC!