It took what it took...
But, more specifically, it took 3 people to tell me 3 different things, at 3 different times...
In chronological order.
First, was a friend of mine who told me that I had alot of shit to work through...
Or something along those lines...
The point being? I didn't want to hear that shit!! I was doing just fine, thank you very much. But deep down, I knew she was right...
Second, was a fellow who woke me up out of a weed, beer, whiskey, red wine....hang over, pounding on my counter, yelling at me, "Do you know what you problem is?!?!"....
...and he never said.
But I knew...
It wasn't until the next time...the next time it happened(the black out, multiple personality, asshole comes out)...when he made a comment about..."the next time"...
Hopefully the next time doesn't come.
Last, but not least, it was 4 words that did it. Four words that rang in my head for days...It rang for days because it's what I told myself while being locked up for 4 those months, 17 years ago.
"Grow the fuck up!"
Each time, it was like a slap in the face, or a head butt to the mouth in some cases.
It took what it took.
It's time to grow the fuck up...again! ;)
