Ready to unwind. Although I am stuck in my mind. Intuition and perception. Is it all just deception? On the forefront of change. Moving forward has me feeling strange. It's for the best. Accepting that I will get little rest during this test. Our paths not chosen; we make our own way. To make our own day. To be better at all costs. But what if my heart frosts? Focused... Cold...like ice...Is this my sacrifice?
Since nobody bothered to ask what this was about I decided to tell someone. I told them that it was about quitting smoking...they laughed, said ok, and didn't bother to say anything back... I don't know if they didn't believe me or what...or, if they just weren't interested. But for those of you who have read this and wonder what it may be about here goes:
Ready to unwind. Stuck in my mind(If any one has ever quit anything successfully, you know that your mind will play tricks on you during the first few hours or days of the process.)
Intuition and perception. Is it all deception?(what I feel and perceive can be deceiving; "I can't do it" or "it's too hard")
On the forefront of change. Moving forward has me feeling strange.(I am at the beginning of this process, I've opted to use medication to help with the cravings. The medication has side effects that have left me feeling depressed.)
It's for the best. Accepting I will get little rest during this test.(pretty self explanatory... As with trying to kick any habit that can physically alter you're mental state; chances are you'll lose sleep.)
Our paths not chosen; we make our own way. To make our own day.(I cannot just sit here with blind faith and think"this is how it's gonna be right now"..."this is just how it is..." Fuck that. If I (wish I could bold/italic from my phone damnit!)... If I want change to happen, I have to make it happen!)
To be better at all costs. But what if my heart frosts? Focused... Cold...like ice...Is this my sacrifice?(if any one has quit smoking or know someone that has knows that they can turn into a real asshole. The smallest things can trigger ragging outbursts. Emotions everywhere. All over the place. I own it. I can be the biggest asshole around. But I am driven for change.)
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